நீளும் யாசிப்பு

யாசிப்பு

சேய் பிரசவிக்கும் உன்மத்தம்

இதயம் வற்றும் கண்கள் அல்ல
உளமை அறிவுக்கு எட்டும்
எனினும் உடன்படாது மனம்

கதைக்க கோடி விடயம் இருந்தும்
நேரில் மாவஞ்சம் செய்யும் நா
உன் மௌன வன்மை கண்டும்
பலவந்தமாய் உயிர் பிழைக்கின்றேன் 
நெஞ்சா ங்கூட்டின் பனிப்புடன்
என்றும் காத்திருப்பில் நான்...

Losing it to soapy dailies....

Somehow finding solace in the only English movie channel that comes with the least expensive package of satellite channels at home,I happily started watching "Shark Tales" an animation,when 20 mins of the movies went by and mom takes control of the magic wand (read as remote control) sits down to watch her daily dose of soaps...huh....that too hindi daily soaps where every serial has a default concrete base of a palatial house,joint family,a widowed-old -granny,parents,kids,kids's spouses,a destitute aunt,maid,a cunning daughter-in-law along with an innocent one....guess even the stories seem similar...only the caste n crew,title,costumes(hope so) and maybe the channels differ...(oh yeah thr are enough of those channels,worst is when even some tamil channels dub these soaps and telecast them ) 3 hrs....of UTV stars,star utsav,star vijay n raj tv...non-stop...huff....Dinner happened meanwhile,but mom was stuck to the sofa....nay...din move an inch....

Well thats when i start cursing the cable guys under my breath....err yeah an a lil bit was meant for mom too....for interrupting "Shark tales" " :'( Seems like i was loud enough that mom brought a saucer full of my fav variety of mangoes n shoved it into my lap....(ha ha u better console me with such gestures now,cos i m mad at u),So there i m trying to make a fuss about it,i yell to mom,who is now in the kitchen
" huh...maaaa!!! i don want mangoes now,i din ask for them!!! "

N guess what mom says "who cares if u asked for them or not....there is no place left inside the refrigerator....cant throw them away either....finish it of !!!!"
Hmmmm....i don get to watch a movie i want to,instead i get to watch these boring serials....to top it all....this insult....fine....atleast i get to have mangoes now....

Parents are such kids sometimes...

Mom was complaining of the missing half the quantity of watermelon juice from the refrigerator,that she had prepared for me,Dad or bro could've gulped down some during their frequent visits to the "ice age-home edition" (read as fridge :P ).But later mom discovers dried up juice on the lower slabs of the refrigerator...now the forensic expert,that she is,constructs the story with available evidence....which is....Dad (cant be bro,has to be dad!!! why??? well mom is the police...dad will obviously be the criminal :P ) is on his regular visit to the refrigerator....

Curiosity's KID checks out the container full of juice,spills half of the contents in the
process of checking it out,comfortably puts the container back in its place before anyone noticed,and walks away like nothing ever happened (done these kinda things like a million times when i was a kid wanting to escape mom's WORDS...dad's act is thus justified :P ).Meanwhile i am on FB,finding "someone spl" online,was cussing and cursing knowing that i wouldn't receive a single msg like always...but still this stupid lil heart keeps longing for it( clearing throat..) ok lets get back to business....Heard this BANG!!!!! hands over my mouth.eyes wide open that they could actually fall outta the sockets...frantically looking around to make sure no one was looking at my reaction...but then thr they were standing, Mom n Dad,picking up an argument on ( you gotta be kidding me) juice...? or god knows what!!! but yeah they made sure that i wasn't hallucinating....

Well that explosion back there was actually facebook chat's sweet sounding "ting" but msg from "someone spl" ?!?!??! that makes the "ting" a "BANG" !!!! it was a simple staright and plain question "got ur laptop?" (well had given my lappy for service for almost 5 days n was stuck to mobile browsing n texting mostly). complete loss of words,not knowing what to reply,tried typing,facepalmed myself a couple of times....on the other side argument was heating up,and the facepalm seemed like a co-incidence....not knowing which to attend first...? reply? ok but wat to reply? or peace-making ? gosh!!! why shud all this happen now ?!?!?! all i could say was"Guys knock it off now !!!!(stupid me,pointing at my FB page) cant u see i m working ?!?!?!? Now the decibels go down....n i say...." stop talking both of u!!! n go to ur rooms !!!! " n guess what they actually fell quiet.... felt like a kindergarden teacher had just said "finger on ur lips,now!!!" and the KIDS marched to their places obediently....:P

Holy mother of watermelon!!! it does feel good when u boss around ur parents and they end up listening to u :P

Impatience is my middle name

Huh.....I m trying to put the blame on something...or someone here (hmmm nope not gonna take the blame on myself yet,hang on)...alrighty!!!got it!!!! Indian cine songs...and why?I am losing patience and I am in such a hurry !!!! to do what? to live my life !!!Unable to read through a book (ok...do not assume text books,couldnt finish one ever in my life,ever!!) so I try to watch a movie based on the book,but unable to sit through even a movie,why movie not even through an episode in a series,losing patienece big time at the rate of....(well at the rate of losing my hair,yeah I might turn bald pretty soon...thinking of becoming a monk...errr...okie dats the last thing one would expect me to be,but hey I might surprise you,beware!!!) worse case these days,unable to even sit through my final semester examinations that i came out in just half the time during my exam yday....wish i could live every episode of my life asap,like an episode per beat on the drum in a hard rock concert.

  Oh yeah now comes the relevance of Indian cine songs...remember how the baby girl grows into the heroine in just one single song,how the hero turns from rags to riches in jus 2 mins of a song,jus like that....wish i could fast foward my life,and get to the end now...alright maybe after I finish writing this piece,can i just skip all the unwanted experiences and just get a sneak peek into good ones(subject to availability),n get rid of time .So now getting back to the impatient part...this is something that happenend yesterday,when I went to the temple about 25kms away for a spl pooja arranged by our prof (inspite of having a break down in the middle of nowhere ,pushing the bike back to hostel under the scorching sun along with a friend)…reached temple at 12 finally,after the pooja left the temple at 12 30pm,jus to cross this huge buzzing textile showroom,while this friend of mine said wish I had time, could hav picked up something (ahem!!! forgot to tell u that I had an exam at 2pm :P ),so the good soul that I am,thought to myself that I shuould’nt be a reason for not having much time to shop,so came to an agreement of spending not more than 15 mins inside the store,so in we go,to find the bliss of conditioned air of the showroom,n off goes my friend to check things out,there I m checking through t-shirts only to realize that I was lookin at guys’ clothes,well now that I hav 15 mins in hand,thought of doing some quick shopping myself (well I m a really impatient shopper),ran upstairs to ladies section,and started scanning through the t-shirts….brown……no……lemon yellow…..never…..black…..too small….white…..cant manage…..pink….girly….purple..no,green..no(losing patience now) beige,orange,short sleeve,too long,too many frill,crumpled,no,no,no,no urgh!!!!! Red!!! Now get it already n leave!!! At the cash counter… a huge crowd…n so I make this plea to one of those guys behind the counter “hey bro (in tamil ofcourse) its jus one piece,could u pls process my bill first n send me away”….gentleman obliged after a few more requests,inspite of getting nasty stares from other customers who had done some serious shopping….so finally after all the billing process was done,jus when another guy was folding the t-shirt to put it into a carry bag,2 beautiful words caught my eye….which when read separately are beautiful,but when read together could spell disaster….”kiss” n “me”!!!!! what the hell hav I done!!!!   

And then very spontaneously there I was standing with all my teeth visible looking at that guy,asking him if I can exchange :P He looked up at me and so did the remaining  5 guys at the counter n ofcourse the other shoppers :P well promising him to get back with the same priced t-shirt in jus 2 mins,rushed back,picked another one which read like “intelligent,successful,fashionable,that’s me n I m the best” kinda thing (so don ask me why am I wearing something like that ,when u see me in it, its much better having irrelevant words on a t-shirt rather inviting trouble with “kiss me” :O ) and when I was back at the counter,this guys told me “you must be our first customer who has exchanged even before a delivery “ :P now that’s a good title to carry :P but yeah stuck to 15 mins,and that’s an achievement being a girl ;)

Random couplets

"Neither a companion nor a destination,i want you to be the path i take,take me through ups n downs,twists n turns but stay with me wherever i go...."


"You make me trip and fall,but keep my world intact from falling apart,you keep me attracted n grounded to you,and always have an equal but opposite reaction to me...You are......my GRAVITY...!"

காபியின் பிழற்ச்சி !!!

தேர்வுக்கு முன்னிரவு விழித்து படிக்க நா சுடும் காபி அருந்தியும்
இரு விழி இமைகள் முத்தமிட்டன உன்னை கனாவில் காணவே....

Could have been a diary entry...

April 3rd 2013

Past few days have been beautiful...apart from the facts that final trimester exams are on....my college life of 2 yrs is coming to an end very soon,the scorching heat of trichy,and almost 60-70kg of books to be taken back home all by myself.....

And what have made these days beautiful....??? 5 mins of quiet and quick dinner with "someone special",a night train journey filled with smiles listening to my favorite romantic melodies ( smiling to myself for hours together thinking about those 5 mins ),a sense of achievement on reaching home handling that huge load of books, when dad n mom are amazed at 5.30 in the morning and ask "how did u manage to bring it by urself ?!?!?!?,trying to get some sleep cuddling with mom,a peaceful day playing,dancing around and ragging dad ,calling him "old man" with my 3 yr old niece,girl gossip with mom in kitchen having breakfast....

Catching up with uncle, aunt n cousin,cursing irctc as usual booking a tatkal ticket for the night,simple but tasty mommy's food for lunch n a satisfying nap in MY bed,lil fun filled shopping in the evening with mom,some serious responsible grown up talks with dad,some heart touching moments with lil bro,remote fight with mom during dinner

And then parting hugs n kisses,a pampering 30 kmph ride to the station with dad,and then in the parking lot hearing the words "Kee,i m proud of u..." from a self made man who lost his father when he was 1 yr old, slogged his whole life,never bowed his head in front of anyone,been a very strict father to his gal all these yrs, oh boy!!!! i couldn't ask for more!!!!

And then that protective-father-talk with the TTR on the train wanting to exchange that side lower seat that i had eagerly booked,making me feel shy and embarrassed at the same moment in front of my fellow passengers who were now smiling along with the TTR when he asked "why ?are u afraid of travelling alone? (uh seriously? do i look anything like scared to u?)" ,now i throw that look at my dad rolling my eyes and opening my arms in the why-me-why-now attitude,and he giggles again like i were a lil kid,and then this short its-time-to-settle-down-now chat on the steps of the train...haaa.....magic of the side lower windy seat,again music in the ears,back to hallucination,and my co-passenger dozing off sitting on my seat itself.....Had to wake up that old man waiting till 12 midnight to get MY berth and continue my dreaming

Having a lil chat over the phone with "someone" for no reason in particular,and then unusually having a good sleep on Rockfort express...getting off the train to sip some coffee at trichy at 5 am only to find the TTR again smiling at me,warning me of theft of bags, n intimating me to get in cos the train was about to leave....n now comes the crazy part,walking 8 kms from the station to hostel (don ask me why) with music plugged in,getting stares from BHEL employees returning home after their shift (must have been thinking "where does she thinking she is going...")

Then heading straight to the mess,solo-munching of breakfast listening to daily horoscope on radio which warned only me of a sad day when suddenly in the corner of the eye, sight of "someone" wooohoooo.....!!!! followed by again a quick 5 mins breakfast together boooyah daily horoscope!!!!!! no where close to a sad day was i !!!!!! \m/

மீட்டுகொடு...

நேர் கண்டும் மௌனம் அணியும்
நின் ஊமைச்சொற்கள் புதைமணல்
சிக்கி புரளும் உயிர் மீட்கும்
நின் கிளர்ச்சி பார்வை அரிது
இருத்தல் காண வெறுமைப்பசியில்
திணறி தவிக்கும் சுவாசம்
அமிர்த நச்சை உள்ளுட்டும்
என் இதயநோயடா நீ !!!

மதிவேதை....

தொடுவானத்தில் முழு நிலா கண்டு
ஆசை பொங்கும் மனம் கொண்டு
தடுமாறும் என் தமிழ் சேர்த்து
நின் நிணைப்பில் கருக்கொண்டேன் கவிதை ஒன்று
யோசிக்க யோசிக்க வெறும் தடைகள்
தேடியும் கிட்டவில்லை வார்த்தைகள்
பின் மனம் கூச்சலிட்டு முணுமுணுத்தது
"அடியே!! கவிஞனுக்காகவே கவிதையா?" என்று.....

Dairymilk Vs Snickers-An analogy

      

    Please do not be misled by the title of this post.its nothing to do  with comparing these two brands of chocolates on the basis of its turnover,market share,communication strategies or manufacturing process (Awesome!!! I've stopped thinking like a normal being now!!! 2 yrs of management studies is definitely taking a toll on my sanity.... ) 

    Well I just happened to realize last night that I've never been fond of Dairymilk (not because of those messy ads where people have their Dairymilk in the most disgusting and unrealistic ways possible,spilling it all around the mouth....errr....anyways) and have preferred Crackle or Snickers or Ferrero Rocher kinda chocolates which have Hazel nuts or peanuts,salty taste and give that crunchy gritty feeling where a lotta effort goes in, to chew and mmmmmm..... ok my mouth is already watering now.

  Weirdly I find something interesting about these preferences of  mine,I prefer struggle!!!! I am not happy with the silky smooth Dairymilk kinda life where everything is hunky dory,where there is a lotta pampering and comforting ,where its easy ,I need that  bit salty and crunchy Snickers kinda life where even if there is a possibility to lead an easy life I don't.

  Its much better to have that pinch of salt (not very good experiences) and nuts (obstacles) to appreciate the taste of cocoa (ecstasy of life)....Though I've had the choice of living a simple life,I've seen to that I drag in more than enough trouble( and I've done undoubtedly remarkable job at that) to just keep it going interesting,so that life doesn't run outta reasons to keep me on my toes.

 After-all a pinch of salt is what adds taste to the food.....

tele-conversations-2

Called up mom to tell her that i would'nt be back home as promised,cos of an interview that i have to attend in the temple town of Kumbakonam, and 

Mom said:"ha good!! get the job and lets leave ur dad n bro back here in chennai,wanna get rid of these ppl for a while"
Me: "errrr....okies....tell dad also ma,gtg now."
Mom: "tell him urself,its better dat way"

So next call to dad,
Me: "Pa thr is this interview for "this bank" coming up...."
Dad: "Yeah its a good bank,better get the job"
Me: "huh.....i'll have to go to kumbakonam pa"
Dad: "yeah i'll also come to be with you,thr are lotsa Siva temples thr,and i'll get a break from all this tension here,mom will be with bro here"
Me: "ehm....huh....okie...."

Me to myself : "Does this bank have a branch in Kaasi or Rameswaram...? :@ the whole family can take up sanyasa together !!!!!! grrrrrr!!!!! "

tele-conversations-1

So last night mom called me up,after waiting for my call the whole day....n here it goes...
Mom: what ?so busy studying for exams huh? don even have time to make a call? dont strain urself so much krithika.....
Me: Yes ma....working on some cases these days.....
Mom: case studies during exams?what are u doing now?
Me: yeah kinda busy Investigating a criminal case ma,talk to u later....love ya
Mom: criminal case ?!?!? :O u got arrested for something u did?!?!?!? gosh!!!! where have u been? what the hell is happening?
Me: Maaaa.... its a game on FB.....ma....
Mom: :@!!!!! exam time la FB game ah!!!!!!! (start the music) ^@^@&*@*&**@&%& (beautiful musical notes.....:P)